You have a deadline. Two deadlines. Basically, your salary for next
month. You have procrastinated and now there is just one night before
you get that call that will make you seem so sloppy. Your client will ask if you really want to do the job. Worse, the client may ask
if you really can do the job.
That will totally break you. Rip your ego to shreds and feed it to
flea-infested stray dogs. The suggestion that you are somehow incapable
of delivering will simply kill you. But you are used to it, have
developed a pattern on working on the last night of your deadline and
producing top notch work. Every time you fret and get cramps from
worrying, but every time, you deliver.
7PM
You have had four beers. You had to see Dinma, your girlfriend from
university who you treated very horribly but called to tell you recently
that she had forgiven you. She was in Abuja for one night and needed to
see you and talk. For closure, she said. You couldn’t even remember
exactly what you did four years ago. You agreed to meet over fish and
chips in Wuse II.
You almost didn’t recognise her. It was the mole on her face that
saved you from embarrassment. Her slim waist and limbs had succumbed to
what she called ‘life and too much junk food’. She now wore a leg chain
and had a tattoo on her shoulder-- some Chinese inscription you didn’t
care to ask about. She made you sit through two hours of detail. How you
left her in your room off campus and didn’t come back for two days. How
you didn’t call or text. How you switched off your phone when she tried
to call. How she later found out from Joe that you were with Hadiza and
had gone off with her to Kaduna to spend the night. How when she told
you she was pregnant, you had the guts to ask her who the father was.
You took drink after drink as she spoke. Some of the facts weren’t
exactly as you remembered them, but the memory was too hazy to argue.
You especially couldn’t remember suggesting she swallow that magic pill
that washes away early pregnancies, disintegrating it into blood. You
only remember that she had to go home for almost three weeks when she
wouldn’t stop bleeding. The beers weren’t helping.
9.35PM
Dinma sends you many long text messages. To say she got home safe to her
sister’s house in Life Camp. To say she feels better now. She forgives
you. She forgives herself. She needed this to move on. She had even
tried being a lesbian because she hated men so much. She forgot to tell
you she is getting married in December. It isn’t an invitation.
10.25PM
You can’t work. You have to sleep these beers off a bit and wake up
early to work. Now you think you should have just worked and not gone to
see Dinma. Your entire June salary is at stake.
10.40PM
You think, being a freelancer sucks. You miss the traumatic days of screaming bosses but assured salaries.
10.45PM
On second thought, you love your job. You no longer hate Mondays, and that is a damn good thing.
10.46PM
Electricity goes off. All three of your neighbours put on their
generators. The biggest, noisiest one is right by your window which you
always keep open for ventilation.
MIDNIGHT
Electricity returns.
12.20AM
You start to doze off a bit.
12.45AM
Electricity goes off again. You get up to drink water. The frost in
your fridge has melted and refroze and has started melting again. The freezer is now a smooth slippery layer of ice. You prefer the
frost. It makes you think of snow. And in a weird way, although you
have never actually seen snow, thinking of it calms you, makes you
happy.
12.48AM
The neighbour with the noisy generator tries to turn it on. He tries
many times. You are becoming happier with each try. You wish it won’t
start.
12.52AM
Your wishes are worth nothing. The generator comes on. You lie awake, in the dark. Unable to sleep. Unable to work.
5.30AM
You fall asleep just after the muezzin next door sings his call to
prayer. Just after your neighbour turns off his noisy generator.
11AM
You phone rings, waking you up. ‘Are you still sleeping?’ your client
asks. ‘How far with the job?’ You sound like a bumbling idiot when you
just wake up. You also cannot lie during that period. You admit ‘you
haven’t even started’. The client is upset and drops the call. You lie
back down.
11.05AM
You wake up with a start realising what you just told the client. You
jump up, take your laptop, hoping it charged a bit while you were
sleeping. A text comes in. ‘Should I find another person for the job?’
You stop scrambling. And grit your teeth.
11.07AM
It is clear in your mind what you must do. The next time this
generator stays on all night. Find the fuel tank of that generator. And
pour copiously. At least one bottle of water.
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